Dis-Connected and De-Construction

Dis-Connected and De-Construction

You’ve heard the quote before: “Today is the first day of the rest of your life”, right? And so it is. Yesterday morning I had a driving voice in my head encouraging me to hike Sunrise Trail to it’s peak overlooking Scottsdale, AZ. Each step of the two mile hike up – the small, scared voice in my mind kept asking…”what am I suppose to do today, tomorrow, next week?” For someone who has always had a plan – whether it was A, B or C – the last couple of years have been as unplanned as one can get. When I packed up my belongings in Las Vegas and put them in storage nearly 3 years ago…I had no clue what I was to do, other than leave where I was and go somewhere else. That “somewhere else” led me to Scottsdale, AZ, where I was dabbling on a work project. I followed my intuition and just went with the flow. This business arrangement didn’t work out but it did allow me the freedom of not having any roots so I took advantage of the situation….packed my car with essentials…and took off driving cross-country visiting old friends and reconnecting with them and myself. It was a fabulous 30-day adventure and one I look forward price to experiencing again. Upon my return, I did plant some roots in a natural little “nest” of an apartment. Now, 2 1/2 years later, I’m still wandering in my mind…and still unsure of what I’m moving towards. I digress…back to the trail. I immersed myself in the desert surroundings ~ the humming of bees collecting pollen, cacti forming their buds and what is readying to flower, lizards scurrying across the trail, ants zig-zagging under my feet, crows calling out, giant saguaro cactus towering above the landscape as if they were the conductors of an orchestra and even a rattlesnake sunning itself as I reached the peak. I breathed in this exquisite energy, filling my lungs with the vibrant energy of nature…. and exhaled the worries, doubts and fears. With each inhale and exhale my mind grew more calm. My body relaxed into a rhythm of walking on the earth. Ahhhhhh. As my body and mind slowed… my inner voice could then be heard. My inner voice didn’t hold back ~ My business is called Connect Thee Dots but I’ve never felt so dis-connected! Kind of ironic, don’t you think? It’s been suggested to me for years that I was to write….but my fears held me back since I didn’t know  what I was suppose to write about! Where did MY passion go? In my past partnerships…I set my passions aside and dove straight into their interests! Ugh! I’ve strayed so far off my original path… and now, like Dorothy in “The Wizard of Oz”, it’s time to begin with one step followed by another on the “yellow brick road” or hiking trail before me.   It was brought to my attention several weeks ago through a distant relative on Facebook that they thought I lived quite an exciting “lifestyle” according to my posts on my personal profile. I realized then how I only share the positive in social media and have never felt the need to whine, boo-hoo or play the victim. I still don’t – but maybe it’s time to show more transparency. Maybe, just maybe, others can relate to what I privately hoard away just like a squirrel anticipating winter. My mentor, Bob Proctor, told me many years ago “if it doesn’t scare you then you aren’t dreaming big enough”. Believe...

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Affirmations Tempered in Tough Times by Lee Ann Hopkins

Affirmations Tempered in Tough Times by Lee Ann Hopkins

Affirmations and positive thinking are not bullies and judges. When things are difficult and circumstances are not optimum, the discord between our wildly optimistic affirmations and the present feelings can seem cruel. The affirmations almost feel like a playground taunt (“naaa-na-naanaa-nahhhh, you can’t get me!”) because the difference between now and that future goal, dream, changed behavior or circumstance is at odds with your present. Let me give an example. When you have an affirmation like, “I am delightfully happy in my new career as a ______” and you have just received three overdue bill notices, two rejections from jobs that were beneath your professional level, and your unemployment is about to run out, then the affirmation in the face of these circumstances seems zealously mean. You might even feel dejected by your own attempts at cheer leading. This is understandable. The trouble is that your mind cannot accept the new vision for yourself in light of the present and, often, wants to be a nuisance with thoughts that put you down further: “See, I can’t even get a job that I can do in my sleep!” or “Things are bad because I am a fraud, a loser, etcetera.” There could be any number of nasty comments zooming through your head. None of this is helpful. During tough times, I suggest that we take a different approach. Instead of throwing affirmations overboard (as inaccurate and unrealistic), create space during these cloudy days for additional self-talk, tempered by the current circumstances, but mindful of our achievable goals. We must be gentle with ourselves and take the current predicament seriously. Step into the river of now with all that is going on. Acknowledge it, instead of denying it. Feel the disappointment, the sadness, the grief or whatever comes up for you. Allow the moment to be okay. Remind yourself that YOU are okay and that YOU can handle whatever is coming your way with grace and good form. Most importantly, you are in fact, BECOMING serendipity and that which your affirmations state–albeit, a bit slower than you may like. The Universe wants good things for you. Progress is being made in spite of our inability to see the future. Remember too, that a straight line does not exist between our present and our goal. Be kind to yourself on the journey and don’t give up your positive self-talk. You may temper or adjust the affirmations, but don’t stop them! Keep on, keeping on. You are further on your way than you realize! Thanks to my sister, Lee Ann Hopkins  ~ The Hooray Daily blogger ~ for these amazing insights! Photo Credit: Marque Kelsey,...

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Only You Hold The Key

Only You Hold The Key

“Beauty and Truth are lost without the courage to hold them. But one pair of hands can grip too hard, so that the precious slips through the fingers. Loss and pain, sorrow and will, blaze the rough path through the forest. Along the journey there is blood, and there is the death of innocence and the ghosts of what might have been. Each time the path forks, it is faith that chooses the way or doubt that blocks it. Is it despair, or will it be joy? Can there be fulfillment without risk of loss? Will it be an end, or a beginning? Will you move into the light, or return to the dark? Fear hunts, and its arrow strikes heart, mind, belly. Without tending, wounds fester, and scars too long ignored harden into shields that block the eyes from what needs most to be seen. Where does the goddess stand, her sword in hand, willing to fight each battle in its time? Willing, too, to lay down the sword when the time comes for peace. Find her, know her power, her faith, and her valiant heart. For when you look on her at last, you will have the key to free her. And you will find it on a path where no door will ever be locked against you.” ~ excerpt from Nora Roberts book “Key of Knowledge” I thought I was picking up a “summer read” for the warm weather arriving here in Las Vegas but received much more than pure entertainment. This excerpt comes from the last page of the second book in Nora Roberts Key Trilogy… and it caused more personal “questions” to arise than the typical sexy beach read could ever possess! I began asking myself questions such as ~ If I hold the “key” for myself, why do I give it (power) over to others  so easily? Do I really know my own “truth”? And if so, why don’t I trust it like I should? Why do I trust others beliefs/perceptions over my own? Why is it so hard for me to stand my ground and believe in my truth/convictions? And on and on… All of this from a romance novel trilogy!!! It just goes to show we can learn from any circumstance, lesson, book or person put in our path. It’s up to us to find the “key” to the meaning and how it is intended to impact our life. I think this is one novel I may have to read again…this time with a highlighter in hand! In-Joy! Holly Photo credit: Marque Kelsey,...

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Where Two or More are Gathered ~ My Cat Opus and I

Where Two or More are Gathered ~ My Cat Opus and I

It is a beautiful Sunday morning ~ the door is open to the gentle breeze, chirping of songbirds and blue sky dusted with wispy clouds. Ahhhhhh… As I enjoy my tea and the morning’s read I discover in print what I have always known to be true (for myself)… “The original Greek term synagoge referred to a gathering of people who met in a public square or a private home to pray or study – much like the word ecclesia, or church, originally referred to a gathering of the faithful. People themselves form the synagogue or church.” – Full of Grace by Judith Dupre Since the tender age of 6 I’ve always found myself outdoors riding horses, cleaning stalls on my farm at various times of my life or as I do now…curled up with a good book, journal, tea and my cat Opus… overlooking the mountains surrounding Las Vegas. This “atmosphere” has always been my gathering place or church. A place where I find peace in my heart, solitude for my soul and compassion for the world. It’s a special time for connecting to those I love and care for… such as the touching call I enjoyed with my brother first thing this morning … visualizing friends across the country as they move about their day … reaching out through Facebook, the phone or emails to those who touch my heart… as well as sharing my thoughts via fingers tapping the keys of my laptop. My prayers today and every day go out to those all over the world ~ for healing the waters, land and air of our precious Mother Earth ~ for love, forgiveness and compassion by all. Namaste ~...

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Choosing Passion Over the Mundane

Choosing Passion Over the Mundane

The sun tiptoes over the mountain ~ casting a bright yellow glow across the desert landscape… an interesting reflection of my life if I use it as an analogy. Since my arrival in Las Vegas in 1997 I have seen how the “light” in me has slowly dimmed with each passing year. The passion I once enjoyed on my tranquil farm in Georgia was edged out as slowly as watching the grass grow. So slowly in fact, I have only recently come to understand the extent of my loss. I made a conscious effort months ago to do “whatever it took” to make a change. I felt lifeless inside even though from the outside no one would guess. Can anyone relate? Did the things that once stirred you appear to have dulled your once excited heart? With each drive to Arizona this year I’ve felt my Spirit and excitement for “all that is” returning. Passing through the Sonoran desert, majestic saguaro cacti and rolling mountains filled my “energy tank”, breathing life into my how long does last soul. I now find myself taking deeper and more expansive breaths of air rather than the shallow, lifeless ones I’d become accustomed to. It is the time of year when the desert begins to bloom in all its glory. What a wonder it is to experience. A week ago as I left Scottsdale, AZ, the saguaro cacti were budding out with the flowers just beginning to burst open. I felt much the same way as the cacti, with my heart opening more and more every day. Passion is returning… You might be wondering how I could be feeling “awakened” since I’m moving from one desert landscape to another…but it’s more about my making the “choice” to change my life’s direction rather than WAITING for something outside of myself to do it FOR me. We each make choices on a daily basis. It doesn’t have to be a geographical change in where we live. You could make simple alterations to your day to day routine, pumping new energy into a stagnant schedule. What if – instead of grabbing your morning coffee and running out the door in a rush to get “somewhere” – you poured your morning brew into a favorite mug (environmentally friendly too); picked up the paper, magazine or uplifting book and then enjoyed a few minutes on your balcony or patio? You could allow the crisp morning air and sounds of the birds chirping to introduce you to the day. Imagine the health benefits!! A quieter mind, lower blood pressure, reduced stress to name just a few! It’s easy for us to slip into the mundane if we remain unconscious… but if we choose to live a “conscious” life… we have the ability to grow, learn from mistakes, be beauty and live a compassionate and passionate life. What are you “choosing” for today? In-Joy! Holly Original Post on my previous blog May 31,...

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