Round and Round We Go ~ New Beginnings or Recycled Rubbish We Need to Finally Release?

Round and Round We Go ~ New Beginnings or Recycled Rubbish We Need to Finally Release?

The following post is one I wrote in December of 2009. On one hand it was an incredible reminder of the many things I’ve learned for myself in the 5 years since…yet on the other hand it brings an ache to my heart because I seem to be a slow learner since I’m still “calling in” similar experiences. Does this ring a bell with any of you? Read on and see for yourself. As I think most of us understand and realize… people come into our lives to teach us life lessons and skills. They are usually a “mirror” for healing that we are needing within ourselves. Back in the late summer I “called” in a person to work for who taught me a great deal about myself! I thought working for him was going to finally be my “home” and a place I could rest my hat for a while since he allowed me to be creative in using the skills I possess. Wrong! He pushed every button I have….multiple times a day! I took a step back and asked “what does he have to teach me?” From here I enlisted a good friend of mine, Mary Ligon, cialis generic as my life/business coach to get to the bottom of the anxieties/frustrations that were bubbling up to the surface as a result of this new “job”. She began by having me take the Winslow Personality Test. I was http://cialis-canadapharmacy.com/ shocked to see how low I scored in: Assertiveness, Mental Toughness, Self Control, Self Confidence and Contentment. These were all areas I had been very strong in years ago but the last few years took it’s toll and where I was once price “super woman”, I now had become “super wimpy”. She began working with my “core values” and “beliefs”….and after a couple of sessions…I could begin feeling all of these weak areas improving. I was taking control of my life and standing up for myself!! I no longer allowed my boss to talk down to coupon me, manipulate me or bully me. I held fast to my beliefs. So much so that he began saying I was “opinionated”! WOW! That’s a first! But who says that having strong opinions is a bad thing? Doesn’t it truly mean that you believe in yourself enough to not back down the minute there is a little opposition? Needless to say, my boss (who was all the things that I wasn’t) and I began to see things differently. Even though I knew he respected my expertise, knowledge and ideas…I think he was becoming a little intimidated by the woman who was growing in her self-confidence! It was the perfect place for me to be for those months…but now I realize that rather than building up someone else’s business it was time to build up my own! Everything happens for a reason! Artwork by www.deviantart.com ~  Round And Round We Go by xdogs4everx...

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Fear Is Not the Enemy ~ with Carol Woodliff

Fear Is Not the Enemy ~ with Carol Woodliff

Throughout the world we have heard mutterings of fear whether it be on the news, at your neighborhood bar & grill, sipping coffee with friends or voices in your own head as you drink your tea each morning. I myself have been doing my best to keep the lid on this “committee” in my mind. Even with years of personal development, training with mentors and expanding my knowledge of the psyche, I still fall into that deep pit from time to time. Over the last year I have probably experienced more than previous years. Fortunately, I’ve had incredible friends and family to help me muddle through. Last summer, Carol Woodliff, sent me her new book “From Scared to Sacred: Lessons in Learning to Dance with Life”.  My own life was extremely busy at the time so the book disappeared on my “to be read” shelf. As synchronicity would have it, the book made an appearance yesterday – nearly jumping up and down on the bookshelf as if to say “read me, read me”. Without hesitation I sat down with my coffee in one hand and the book in another…and dove in. The timing was perfect. I felt as though Carol’s Introduction and first chapter were written for me. The following is an excerpt of the “Voice” speaking through her. I hope it will touch you as it touched me: “Fear is not an enemy to be destroyed.  It is a messenger to greet and discern the wisdom of it’s messages. To grow, learn how to dance with fear not fight it. Be gentle and compassionate; hold your fear like a child. Listen. What is it trying to tell you? Is it truly telling you to do something for your physical safety or is it keeping you from living? Only when you can discern this difference, will you transform. Whatever fear or burden you carry, there is a home for you. There is a place to rest. There are open arms to hold you and there is a fire of love so strong to warm you. When you are scared, turn the fear over to me. Ask me to send love, guidance and protection. I hear you. I surround you with angel wings. I carry you to love until you remember it inside. I hold it for you. I hold the vision for you bright and clear. I am near. When you call upon me, I am there in ways only the heart can see – perfect moments of synchronicity, helpful friends and strangers, moments of inspiration and love. More love than your simple heart can hold. I am there. Breathe and fall back into my arms. I will catch you and raise you up when fear overtakes you. I will catch you and cradle you when you are what happens if a woman takes sad. I am pure light and love and I am always yours. This moment til the end of time, I am yours, Love.  Love is always yours.    I will hold you until you remember.” In-Joy! Holly Check Carol’s blog out: www.carolwoodliff.com Photo Credit: AnnieB-art, UK    ...

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Dreams ~ Illusion vs Reality

Dreams ~ Illusion vs Reality

Dreaming has always been an integral piece to my personal development and processing of what life brings to my journey. The last few days have brought a flood of hidden emotions to the surface of my psyche. After an intense trip to NYC for family business I returned home to collapse from mental, emotional and physical exhaustion… cocooning into the safety of my “nest”. A week later I awoke to the most intense dream…full of details, colors, verbal and non-verbal communication, laughter and physical senses. The dream continued to run through my mind for hours after being fully alert ~ Dream: I was with a very special friend who was driving my car down a city street (yet the street was 20-30′ below the surface as if in a narrow canyon). As we rode along, we talked, laughed, shared our lives. The chatter was light and energetic and fun. Out of the blue he shared with me how his friend’s ex wife had just been released from prison… and then we were back to more lively conversation. The next minute… the car slowed and bumped gently into a huge dump truck that came out of nowhere. It was just parked in the middle of the road. My friend exited our car to check for damage to my bumper but there wasn’t a scratch… It only blocked our moving forward. There was an increased energy between us… and a deep knowing of how we felt… but we were halted in the middle of the road regardless. Then I awoke! Weeks later the dream is still as vibrant to me as it was that morning, yet as my life has unfolded I understand how pieces of the dream correlate to what is happening in my life: the relationship between two people (or even two sides of the same person) hidden below the surface of consciousness; the flow of energy blocked by a stalled out yet movable object; the intense chemistry between two people – seemingly out of control yet unable to move forward; and the ever so popular cliche “a bump in the road”! lol During this morning’s meditation practice…my mind went back to this dream. I was drawn into the concept of two people meeting and “falling out of control”. Is this what it is like when people describe “falling in love” when their knees go weak at the mere thought of the other person? Do their normally rational thoughts have no control in this situation? And how do they react to such feelings? Do they allow the fear of this “unknown” factor in the equation of life to “block” their exploring the capabilities of finding true love? Or do they embrace something so out of the ordinary as this once in a lifetime feeling – following the thread to see where it may lead them? I used to be a very type A personality. I held the “reins” of life tightly…never relinquishing control…but then the reins were ripped from my grip by circumstances “beyond” my control. At first it was devastating. Then I began to understand the journey I was to begin traveling. My self discovery involved learning to ride the currents of the unknown; releasing judgment, attachment and expectations. It has been an adventurous 17 years to date but one roller coaster ride worth every minute as I look back and see how far I have come. That fateful August day in 1993 was the best thing to ever happen to me. Every single person who has entered my life ~ whether for a moment, a day, a...

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Only You Hold The Key

Only You Hold The Key

“Beauty and Truth are lost without the courage to hold them. But one pair of hands can grip too hard, so that the precious slips through the fingers. Loss and pain, sorrow and will, blaze the rough path through the forest. Along the journey there is blood, and there is the death of innocence and the ghosts of what might have been. Each time the path forks, it is faith that chooses the way or doubt that blocks it. Is it despair, or will it be joy? Can there be fulfillment without risk of loss? Will it be an end, or a beginning? Will you move into the light, or return to the dark? Fear hunts, and its arrow strikes heart, mind, belly. Without tending, wounds fester, and scars too long ignored harden into shields that block the eyes from what needs most to be seen. Where does the goddess stand, her sword in hand, willing to fight each battle in its time? Willing, too, to lay down the sword when the time comes for peace. Find her, know her power, her faith, and her valiant heart. For when you look on her at last, you will have the key to free her. And you will find it on a path where no door will ever be locked against you.” ~ excerpt from Nora Roberts book “Key of Knowledge” I thought I was picking up a “summer read” for the warm weather arriving here in Las Vegas but received much more than pure entertainment. This excerpt comes from the last page of the second book in Nora Roberts Key Trilogy… and it caused more personal “questions” to arise than the typical sexy beach read could ever possess! I began asking myself questions such as ~ If I hold the “key” for myself, why do I give it (power) over to others  so easily? Do I really know my own “truth”? And if so, why don’t I trust it like I should? Why do I trust others beliefs/perceptions over my own? Why is it so hard for me to stand my ground and believe in my truth/convictions? And on and on… All of this from a romance novel trilogy!!! It just goes to show we can learn from any circumstance, lesson, book or person put in our path. It’s up to us to find the “key” to the meaning and how it is intended to impact our life. I think this is one novel I may have to read again…this time with a highlighter in hand! In-Joy! Holly Photo credit: Marque Kelsey,...

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Choosing Passion Over the Mundane

Choosing Passion Over the Mundane

The sun tiptoes over the mountain ~ casting a bright yellow glow across the desert landscape… an interesting reflection of my life if I use it as an analogy. Since my arrival in Las Vegas in 1997 I have seen how the “light” in me has slowly dimmed with each passing year. The passion I once enjoyed on my tranquil farm in Georgia was edged out as slowly as watching the grass grow. So slowly in fact, I have only recently come to understand the extent of my loss. I made a conscious effort months ago to do “whatever it took” to make a change. I felt lifeless inside even though from the outside no one would guess. Can anyone relate? Did the things that once stirred you appear to have dulled your once excited heart? With each drive to Arizona this year I’ve felt my Spirit and excitement for “all that is” returning. Passing through the Sonoran desert, majestic saguaro cacti and rolling mountains filled my “energy tank”, breathing life into my how long does last soul. I now find myself taking deeper and more expansive breaths of air rather than the shallow, lifeless ones I’d become accustomed to. It is the time of year when the desert begins to bloom in all its glory. What a wonder it is to experience. A week ago as I left Scottsdale, AZ, the saguaro cacti were budding out with the flowers just beginning to burst open. I felt much the same way as the cacti, with my heart opening more and more every day. Passion is returning… You might be wondering how I could be feeling “awakened” since I’m moving from one desert landscape to another…but it’s more about my making the “choice” to change my life’s direction rather than WAITING for something outside of myself to do it FOR me. We each make choices on a daily basis. It doesn’t have to be a geographical change in where we live. You could make simple alterations to your day to day routine, pumping new energy into a stagnant schedule. What if – instead of grabbing your morning coffee and running out the door in a rush to get “somewhere” – you poured your morning brew into a favorite mug (environmentally friendly too); picked up the paper, magazine or uplifting book and then enjoyed a few minutes on your balcony or patio? You could allow the crisp morning air and sounds of the birds chirping to introduce you to the day. Imagine the health benefits!! A quieter mind, lower blood pressure, reduced stress to name just a few! It’s easy for us to slip into the mundane if we remain unconscious… but if we choose to live a “conscious” life… we have the ability to grow, learn from mistakes, be beauty and live a compassionate and passionate life. What are you “choosing” for today? In-Joy! Holly Original Post on my previous blog May 31,...

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