Dreams ~ Illusion vs Reality

Dreams ~ Illusion vs Reality

Dreaming has always been an integral piece to my personal development and processing of what life brings to my journey. The last few days have brought a flood of hidden emotions to the surface of my psyche. After an intense trip to NYC for family business I returned home to collapse from mental, emotional and physical exhaustion… cocooning into the safety of my “nest”. A week later I awoke to the most intense dream…full of details, colors, verbal and non-verbal communication, laughter and physical senses. The dream continued to run through my mind for hours after being fully alert ~ Dream: I was with a very special friend who was driving my car down a city street (yet the street was 20-30′ below the surface as if in a narrow canyon). As we rode along, we talked, laughed, shared our lives. The chatter was light and energetic and fun. Out of the blue he shared with me how his friend’s ex wife had just been released from prison… and then we were back to more lively conversation. The next minute… the car slowed and bumped gently into a huge dump truck that came out of nowhere. It was just parked in the middle of the road. My friend exited our car to check for damage to my bumper but there wasn’t a scratch… It only blocked our moving forward. There was an increased energy between us… and a deep knowing of how we felt… but we were halted in the middle of the road regardless. Then I awoke! Weeks later the dream is still as vibrant to me as it was that morning, yet as my life has unfolded I understand how pieces of the dream correlate to what is happening in my life: the relationship between two people (or even two sides of the same person) hidden below the surface of consciousness; the flow of energy blocked by a stalled out yet movable object; the intense chemistry between two people – seemingly out of control yet unable to move forward; and the ever so popular cliche “a bump in the road”! lol During this morning’s meditation practice…my mind went back to this dream. I was drawn into the concept of two people meeting and “falling out of control”. Is this what it is like when people describe “falling in love” when their knees go weak at the mere thought of the other person? Do their normally rational thoughts have no control in this situation? And how do they react to such feelings? Do they allow the fear of this “unknown” factor in the equation of life to “block” their exploring the capabilities of finding true love? Or do they embrace something so out of the ordinary as this once in a lifetime feeling – following the thread to see where it may lead them? I used to be a very type A personality. I held the “reins” of life tightly…never relinquishing control…but then the reins were ripped from my grip by circumstances “beyond” my control. At first it was devastating. Then I began to understand the journey I was to begin traveling. My self discovery involved learning to ride the currents of the unknown; releasing judgment, attachment and expectations. It has been an adventurous 17 years to date but one roller coaster ride worth every minute as I look back and see how far I have come. That fateful August day in 1993 was the best thing to ever happen to me. Every single person who has entered my life ~ whether for a moment, a day, a...

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Only You Hold The Key

Only You Hold The Key

“Beauty and Truth are lost without the courage to hold them. But one pair of hands can grip too hard, so that the precious slips through the fingers. Loss and pain, sorrow and will, blaze the rough path through the forest. Along the journey there is blood, and there is the death of innocence and the ghosts of what might have been. Each time the path forks, it is faith that chooses the way or doubt that blocks it. Is it despair, or will it be joy? Can there be fulfillment without risk of loss? Will it be an end, or a beginning? Will you move into the light, or return to the dark? Fear hunts, and its arrow strikes heart, mind, belly. Without tending, wounds fester, and scars too long ignored harden into shields that block the eyes from what needs most to be seen. Where does the goddess stand, her sword in hand, willing to fight each battle in its time? Willing, too, to lay down the sword when the time comes for peace. Find her, know her power, her faith, and her valiant heart. For when you look on her at last, you will have the key to free her. And you will find it on a path where no door will ever be locked against you.” ~ excerpt from Nora Roberts book “Key of Knowledge” I thought I was picking up a “summer read” for the warm weather arriving here in Las Vegas but received much more than pure entertainment. This excerpt comes from the last page of the second book in Nora Roberts Key Trilogy… and it caused more personal “questions” to arise than the typical sexy beach read could ever possess! I began asking myself questions such as ~ If I hold the “key” for myself, why do I give it (power) over to others  so easily? Do I really know my own “truth”? And if so, why don’t I trust it like I should? Why do I trust others beliefs/perceptions over my own? Why is it so hard for me to stand my ground and believe in my truth/convictions? And on and on… All of this from a romance novel trilogy!!! It just goes to show we can learn from any circumstance, lesson, book or person put in our path. It’s up to us to find the “key” to the meaning and how it is intended to impact our life. I think this is one novel I may have to read again…this time with a highlighter in hand! In-Joy! Holly Photo credit: Marque Kelsey,...

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Where Two or More are Gathered ~ My Cat Opus and I

Where Two or More are Gathered ~ My Cat Opus and I

It is a beautiful Sunday morning ~ the door is open to the gentle breeze, chirping of songbirds and blue sky dusted with wispy clouds. Ahhhhhh… As I enjoy my tea and the morning’s read I discover in print what I have always known to be true (for myself)… “The original Greek term synagoge referred to a gathering of people who met in a public square or a private home to pray or study – much like the word ecclesia, or church, originally referred to a gathering of the faithful. People themselves form the synagogue or church.” – Full of Grace by Judith Dupre Since the tender age of 6 I’ve always found myself outdoors riding horses, cleaning stalls on my farm at various times of my life or as I do now…curled up with a good book, journal, tea and my cat Opus… overlooking the mountains surrounding Las Vegas. This “atmosphere” has always been my gathering place or church. A place where I find peace in my heart, solitude for my soul and compassion for the world. It’s a special time for connecting to those I love and care for… such as the touching call I enjoyed with my brother first thing this morning … visualizing friends across the country as they move about their day … reaching out through Facebook, the phone or emails to those who touch my heart… as well as sharing my thoughts via fingers tapping the keys of my laptop. My prayers today and every day go out to those all over the world ~ for healing the waters, land and air of our precious Mother Earth ~ for love, forgiveness and compassion by all. Namaste ~...

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Choosing Passion Over the Mundane

Choosing Passion Over the Mundane

The sun tiptoes over the mountain ~ casting a bright yellow glow across the desert landscape… an interesting reflection of my life if I use it as an analogy. Since my arrival in Las Vegas in 1997 I have seen how the “light” in me has slowly dimmed with each passing year. The passion I once enjoyed on my tranquil farm in Georgia was edged out as slowly as watching the grass grow. So slowly in fact, I have only recently come to understand the extent of my loss. I made a conscious effort months ago to do “whatever it took” to make a change. I felt lifeless inside even though from the outside no one would guess. Can anyone relate? Did the things that once stirred you appear to have dulled your once excited heart? With each drive to Arizona this year I’ve felt my Spirit and excitement for “all that is” returning. Passing through the Sonoran desert, majestic saguaro cacti and rolling mountains filled my “energy tank”, breathing life into my how long does last soul. I now find myself taking deeper and more expansive breaths of air rather than the shallow, lifeless ones I’d become accustomed to. It is the time of year when the desert begins to bloom in all its glory. What a wonder it is to experience. A week ago as I left Scottsdale, AZ, the saguaro cacti were budding out with the flowers just beginning to burst open. I felt much the same way as the cacti, with my heart opening more and more every day. Passion is returning… You might be wondering how I could be feeling “awakened” since I’m moving from one desert landscape to another…but it’s more about my making the “choice” to change my life’s direction rather than WAITING for something outside of myself to do it FOR me. We each make choices on a daily basis. It doesn’t have to be a geographical change in where we live. You could make simple alterations to your day to day routine, pumping new energy into a stagnant schedule. What if – instead of grabbing your morning coffee and running out the door in a rush to get “somewhere” – you poured your morning brew into a favorite mug (environmentally friendly too); picked up the paper, magazine or uplifting book and then enjoyed a few minutes on your balcony or patio? You could allow the crisp morning air and sounds of the birds chirping to introduce you to the day. Imagine the health benefits!! A quieter mind, lower blood pressure, reduced stress to name just a few! It’s easy for us to slip into the mundane if we remain unconscious… but if we choose to live a “conscious” life… we have the ability to grow, learn from mistakes, be beauty and live a compassionate and passionate life. What are you “choosing” for today? In-Joy! Holly Original Post on my previous blog May 31,...

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How Do You Bounce Back From Disappointment?

How Do You Bounce Back From Disappointment?

I was taught from a young age to “reach for the stars”… with a Mother who told me I could do anything I set my mind to. As a result, I’ve been fortunate to look at life in a positive light. Of course, there are times I have been knocked down due to circumstances beyond my control but I have always gotten back up. I would be lying if I didn’t tell you there were times over the last few years where I’ve been a little slower in getting on my feet with a smile again. We all have those “lessons”… but I believe these are the times when our true character shines. How are we going to react or respond? When life hands you lemons ~ i.e. being passed over at work; someone who you are attracted to doesn’t respond in the same way; a family member turning their back on you; moving to a new city and wondering what the hell are you doing here; and on and on ~ how do you make lemonade???? Here are a few of my favorite stress busters ~ If anxiety rears it’s ugly head I stop what I’m doing, close my eyes, take a long deep breath in through my nose, then blow out the tension/stress through my mouth…and repeat until my mind is calm as well as my heart. I steep a nice cup of white or green tea…creating a peaceful and regenerative ritual; observing all the blessings in my life. I look around to see who I can lift up… such as the sales person at the 7-11; greeting each stranger I meet with a smile and “hello”; calling a friend just to say I was thinking of them; or sending a hand written note to someone special. It’s the little things we take for granted each day that make a big difference in someone’s life. How many times have you lit up when a friend compliments you unexpectedly? It always gives me the warm “fuzzies”! Then there are the tried and true activities to get your butt moving ~ a walk in nature or down a new trail; hitting the gym and sweating to Christina Aguilara’s “Dirty” CD; a quiet sun salutation in the early morning hours after waking to a new day and reading one of my many treasured books. Or you could post a new blog like I’ve learned to do! As Wayne Dyer has always shared ~ Change your Thoughts, Change your Mind. Developing “tools” with which to adjust your mental state of mind and attitude are invaluable in bouncing back from the disappointing lemons of life. Each of those lemons though can be transformed into the most delicious lemonade you could ever imagine! over the counter All it takes is a little Sugar to sweeten the mix! Add some “sugar” into your day, attitude and living…then stand back and watch the abundance pour in! Make it a day filled with the sweet nectar of life! In-Joy! Holly Originally posted on my old blog ~ June 13, 2011 Photography by Marque Kelsey, Quiet Walk...

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