Dis-Connected and De-Construction

Dis-Connected and De-Construction

You’ve heard the quote before: “Today is the first day of the rest of your life”, right? And so it is. Yesterday morning I had a driving voice in my head encouraging me to hike Sunrise Trail to it’s peak overlooking Scottsdale, AZ. Each step of the two mile hike up – the small, scared voice in my mind kept asking…”what am I suppose to do today, tomorrow, next week?” For someone who has always had a plan – whether it was A, B or C – the last couple of years have been as unplanned as one can get. When I packed up my belongings in Las Vegas and put them in storage nearly 3 years ago…I had no clue what I was to do, other than leave where I was and go somewhere else. That “somewhere else” led me to Scottsdale, AZ, where I was dabbling on a work project. I followed my intuition and just went with the flow. This business arrangement didn’t work out but it did allow me the freedom of not having any roots so I took advantage of the situation….packed my car with essentials…and took off driving cross-country visiting old friends and reconnecting with them and myself. It was a fabulous 30-day adventure and one I look forward price to experiencing again. Upon my return, I did plant some roots in a natural little “nest” of an apartment. Now, 2 1/2 years later, I’m still wandering in my mind…and still unsure of what I’m moving towards. I digress…back to the trail. I immersed myself in the desert surroundings ~ the humming of bees collecting pollen, cacti forming their buds and what is readying to flower, lizards scurrying across the trail, ants zig-zagging under my feet, crows calling out, giant saguaro cactus towering above the landscape as if they were the conductors of an orchestra and even a rattlesnake sunning itself as I reached the peak. I breathed in this exquisite energy, filling my lungs with the vibrant energy of nature…. and exhaled the worries, doubts and fears. With each inhale and exhale my mind grew more calm. My body relaxed into a rhythm of walking on the earth. Ahhhhhh. As my body and mind slowed… my inner voice could then be heard. My inner voice didn’t hold back ~ My business is called Connect Thee Dots but I’ve never felt so dis-connected! Kind of ironic, don’t you think? It’s been suggested to me for years that I was to write….but my fears held me back since I didn’t know  what I was suppose to write about! Where did MY passion go? In my past partnerships…I set my passions aside and dove straight into their interests! Ugh! I’ve strayed so far off my original path… and now, like Dorothy in “The Wizard of Oz”, it’s time to begin with one step followed by another on the “yellow brick road” or hiking trail before me.   It was brought to my attention several weeks ago through a distant relative on Facebook that they thought I lived quite an exciting “lifestyle” according to my posts on my personal profile. I realized then how I only share the positive in social media and have never felt the need to whine, boo-hoo or play the victim. I still don’t – but maybe it’s time to show more transparency. Maybe, just maybe, others can relate to what I privately hoard away just like a squirrel anticipating winter. My mentor, Bob Proctor, told me many years ago “if it doesn’t scare you then you aren’t dreaming big enough”. Believe...

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Our Teachers Are People Too

Our Teachers Are People Too

“Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery” ~ Charles Caleb Colton Throughout my life I have been extremely fortunate to have teachers who in my opinion have been the best of the best…whether I was competing my horses with a 5 time Olympian such as Anne Kursinski; building a business with personal mentors such as Bob Proctor, John Asaraff or Zig Ziglar; or delving into my own personal journey of self discovery with my shamanic teachers Alberto Villoldo, PhD, and Oscar Miro Quesada. Over the last 20+ years I have heard or listened to comment after comment from people who had no personal knowledge of “who” these and other teachers are at their core, yet felt they had a “right” (and I use that term loosely) to degrade, criticize and tear apart with their own biased judgment, fears and projections. I have been taught over the years to not “engage” when I hear these comments…. but if I don’t engage or defend what my own beliefs are on the matter, am I not colluding in the other person’s “story”? At what point do I stand up and say “this is not acceptable…and you are out of line”? Time after time I see people on Facebook or other social media channels picking apart a teacher’s quote or maliciously making a snide comment to make the teacher appear out of integrity or even wrong. And why is this even necessary? Do these people who stand in the shadows and criticize others have the courage to develop their own research and studies; write books on their personal discoveries; travel exhausting schedules for talks or trainings; or put themselves on the line day after day to spark even one little flame within a stranger amidst the crowd? NO… they don’t… Instead, they pick apart every word spoken to find fault and justification in their own minds for what they are condemning in a teacher/mentor’s words because they hide in their own shadows of disdain. Are these people so naive as to think that EVERY book or word is an ORIGINAL thought? From the moment we are born we learn by imitation. I can’t even begin to tell you how many times I have heard Bob Proctor or Zig Ziglar joke about “borrowing” a story in their speech from one of their colleagues! Imitation truly is the sincerest form of flattery! We learn by imitating others from birth…and through experience and knowledge we pick up from family, friends, mentors, teachers and life. This is a life long process. Maybe it’s time people get off their self-righteous soap boxes… and look within. Before spouting off a judgment or criticism about another, look at them as a mirror to see what is being reflected back to us for our own knowing. Listen to the words and ask yourself how they may resonate in your own life… I think you may be surprised at what you hear… In-Joy! Holly   Originally posted April 28, 2012 on my old blog...

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